Prompt: Why do you really want to lose this weight? Who are you doing this for?
I want to lose this weight because, if I had done my job, if I had followed through on the promise I made myself when I lost it, I would have no weight to lose.
I’m doing it for me. I’m doing it because, as I watched the undulations of the scale this past year, mostly powerless to stop it with any consistency, I promised myself that as soon as I was healthy, and physically able, I would get right back down to my goal weight.
I would venture to say that if most people knew how much I wanted to lose, they would not understand the strength of my conviction. It’s not as if I changed sizes in clothing. I do not look, to anyone else, as though I have gained weight.
So what’s the big deal? The big deal is that I’ve been here before. In the past, I have watched the numbers creep up and said, It’s only a pound. Tomorrow. I’ll get back on track tomorrow. Previously, I tomorrowed myself into a 70 pound weight gain. I will not do that to myself again.
I promised myself I would never do that again. That, at least, is a promise I can keep.